Update
Hi guys so I have not updated my blog in a few weeks so I
thought instead of choosing a topic to write about I would give you a update on
what being happing in my life, with regards to POTS,Af and how I have been coping.
Uni
So as many of you who will read my blog will know I have
decided to carry on with my second year at university. When I made the choice to
go back in September it was due to the fact that I really wanted to go back to
study and I really didn’t want my Pots
or AF to get in the way of my studies.
Well I don’t think I really estimated how hard uni would be
now that I have these conditions. I am actually finding it really difficult ,as
many of you know with Pots and AF you have really good days and then you have
bad days and at times the bad days can be really bad. There have been times
when my dizziness has got so bad I have had to leave the class as feel like I
might collapse. I have really tried to attend all my classes as I don’t want to
fall behind, but I think all the stress is actually making my pots worse as I
have to push my really hard which at times can be challenging
I have been lucky that student finance pay for me to get a
taxi to uni and back home which has been really helpful and takes the stress
out of having to travel on public transport.
I am still going to try and continue to stay at university,
but I am going to start to look after myself a bit better and if I need to take
a day off I will take that day off without feeling guilty.
Cognitive behaviour therapy
I have now completed a 12 week course on CBT in regards to
helping with my anxiety and do not actually think that it has worked for me.
One of the reasons me and my therapies discovered it was not maybe going to
work is due to the fact that a lot of the internal symptoms of anxiety are
actually the same as the symptoms I receive for POTS.
While I didn’t find the course actually worked for me I really
did find it useful to talk to someone once a week about the how I was feeling
regarding my illness and also just generally how I was coping. As I found this
useful my therapies felt I would benefit from a course of counselling which I am
actually looking forward to.
Health
With regards to my AF I am actually in hospital at the
moment as I am having ablation on my heart tomorrow. I have been going in and
out of AF more frequently, so this is hopefully going to help. I am actually really nervous about
having the procedure as I think I am worried it will not work. I have tried
many different types of medication for POTS and AF that I hoped would work and then they didn’t or my body didn’t tolerate
them and this made me lose hope that I would get better. While I am aware that
there is a chance that the producer may not work and I may require another
ablation at some times on the future, I am praying that it will be successful.
With regards to Pots I have been having some really bad days
this month the dizziness has been really been and has been making me feel a
little depressed. I have realised that
with pots I can have times when I feel that this illness is going to defeat me
and then I have goods days when I feel like this illness is something I can
overcome.
I think that I need to give myself more times to come to
terms with POTS as I was only diagnosed in May so I need to take time to really
get to know this illness as so to speak.
I have decided that my next blog will be on exercise so when
I get out of hospital and am better I will be attempting lots of different pots
safe exercise and let you all know how they went.